Vim rants...

Hello world!

This is my first post on blogspot.
I used to maintain a blog during college days, used to call it DreamWeb.
But its history! After 2 years I am writing again.

In the last 2 years the World has changed a lot.
Westernization of Indian culture and Indians wearing expensive, but little clothes, is among one of the many changes that disturbs me.
Not that it makes me feel sad or depressed, but that it is disturbing the harmony of my mind in some way or the other.

I do not care about what other people wear, it is none of my business. But for some reason, I think, the way people live affects society a lot. And we being social animals, it affects us one way or the other. I feel different when I reach my village, I become a different man, happiness within and elevated spirits!

2 years out of college...I feel I have changed a lot.
Even Life has changed a lot. Life used to be a dream, it used to be fun...but all of a sudden there is more of suffering, pain and loss. Now it’s a run to make a living, to survive.

My intellectual value has also fallen. I feel I am a big ZERO!
Back to college days, I used to be a techie. I used to have EK beside me.
(Am not forgetting friends and family..they are always there. Its a different side of life, the evergreen side)Never felt I was alone. I always had something or the other to do...someone or the other to talk to.

Then there was our "DreamWeb". Made, hosted, and maintained by us....we were called the Cyber Age couples! During breaks we used to exchange floppies...content to be viewed and updated on the DreamWeb. DreamWeb was full of flash movies, PowerPoint presentations, password protected Word documents and an up-to-date blog of our lives.

Now....

Its me and this lonely life. I hate this city life...but again, holding on to survive.

But I know I should live. I will. Everyone says that's life.
Shouldn't I believe it when everyone says so?
I do, and I am living....

Will the evergreen side dry someday? I know that will be even more painful.
But I will live.... there should be a purpose for this life, there will be, for sure.

I dont want to make this a dry blog...filled with tales of tears, pain and all thats bad and negative.

I want to be cheerful...so u can expect this to a colourful blog, with occasional salt and pepper of memories, of course its a reflection of my mind.

I read this post over and over again...so many things are going past my mind, they are moving faster than I could write.

And if I write more, it could get more personal...so let me publish this now, or its going to be never!


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...